This is what happens
when you spent too long silent
when you don’t now how to stand up for yourself because you were too young to know how

This is what happens
when you accept limitation after limitation
like there’s not at thing you could do about it

This is what happens
when you feel so sick for so long
you can’t see straight
and all perspective is lost
when you don’t remember feeling any other way
when you can’t eat but you have to eat
and a good sleep is out of the question.

this is what happens
when your heart gets broken one too many times
when people who are supposed to love you
just can’t handle you when you’re like this
when love no longer exists without
the word “Unrequited” in front of it

This is what happens
when people get taken away too fast
for you to understand
taken away too young
when people you love suffer
and are forced to leave before either
of you are ready

This is what happens
when you have too many panic attacks
too many, til you just can’t catch your breath
no breaks for you, your body tries to take it
but your mind can’t

not when you feel
so sick
so small
so helpless
so confused
so angry
so tired
for so long

you break.

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